These past few days as I tried to sit and at least blog about something, no words came and I worked on something else instead.
Today, I decided that no matter what, I was going to write something .. ANYTHING … just write or blog. Whatever!
Some thing that I have been thinking a lot about is how, as a society, we no longer have a mourning ritual or period or anything like that as they did in the past.
We live in such a “hurry up and go” environment now days that it isn’t any wonder why it is so hard to get over anything – especially the tragic loss of a loved one. We bottle it up, bury it in the back of the closet, and carry on with life.
OOOOPs .. and then it comes. That little package we buried deep in the back of the closet. Like a flippin’ chaotic tornado ripping through our lives …
WHY???? Because, as a society, we have an incredibly crappy way of mourning the loss of our loved ones!!!
Now for some of us, moving forward helps us get over the tragic loss. Keeping busy and trying to lead a normal life .. for many, this works. Others who try this, end up like robots. Just moving through the motions. Smiling and nodding as they go through their lives … not realizing that IT IS OKAY TO MOURN, to cry, to be angry, to be frustrated … to suddenly burst into tears when you smell a certain scent or hear a certain word.
I’m not going to hang a black wreath outside my door for 6 months, wear black for a year, or leave the house with a veil over my face. That just is NOT me.
My mother-in-law knew I loved to sew. About a month before her tragic passing to other side, she asked if I wanted her sewing machine. Of course I said yes, even though I already have one. I figured I could use it until I get mine fix and then pass it on. Now … I will keep it .. and use it of course.
Instead of donating her clothes, I am going to make pillows out of all her shirts for the family. I am going to figure out a way to incorporate some of her clothes into a quilt for our young son who doesn’t get a chance to know who his Mema is. I think that’s a great way to honor her memory — using her sewing machine that she never did really use. The crazy woman! LOL
Getting back into blogging, catching up with the UBC and working towards growing my business should not be a priority right now. And it really isn’t. But it helps me keep busy. Catching up with laundry, doing the dishes and making sure there some sort of schedule back in Bubby’s daily routine seems to be taking precedence as well.
But the healing has begun for everyone touched by this tragedy.
I want to thank everyone for all your kind words, thoughts prayers and patience! I am so grateful to be surrounded by so many fabulous and wonderful people!